Hopes, Dreams, and Unrealistic Aspirations

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WARNING LONG POST AHEAD PROCEED AT OWN CAUTION

Hi again, lovely people of the internet!

By the time you read this (since I was waay too verbose last time) it’ll be January. 1. 2019.

*screams*

“I wasn’t prepared for this. We can’t let them know anything.”- Kira

Truer words have never been spoken, Kira. But I *am* letting you know some things… not quite sure why.

Ohhh, right! Because I thought it would be a good idea! *facesmacks* It doesn’t seem too bad right now, so… uh…here goes. 🙂

2019 Goals

Life Goals

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  • Get a job. Somehow, someway, I’d really really like to work and save money for even more future stuff- if that’s what God wants. But even not, doing some thing that’s a little more serious than a fandom. 😛
  • Wake up early and get stuff DONE. For Christmas break, my gift to myself was slacking off on everything. Including important, essential things like devotions. And I don’t want to admit that, but I have to. Because starting now, I want to change that, and start being productive.
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With my feet propped up, a’course!
  • Read the whole New Testament and get into Bible Bee’s Summer Study. Last year (which feels like yesterday, probably because it was) I was so blessed by digging deeper into God’s word, and I don’t think I can explain that. It’s so awesome to study the Bible not because anyone says you have to, but because you want to. So I’m looking forward to this!
  • School. Crush it. Defeat the boss villain, move to next level. ‘Nuff said. Oh, and start seriously learning French. And look at ops around.
  • Train.  And by train I mean exercise. Because I’d love to get stronger in that area.
  • Learn as many life skills as I can at this age. They’re life skills. I’ll need them. Some of em are fun!
  • Go to a buskerfest. And get a buskering permit. I doubt I’ll crush this goal, but it won’t be for lack of trying. *grabs hammer*
  • Get offscreen for more than I am on. As much as I love Pinterest, I won’t let it take away time I could use to use other worthy things. Besides, I don’t want to be that kid that never sticks her head out to see the sky.
  • Develop my photography. Compared to my first picture here, I’d glad to say that I’ve grown a tad in the mastery of the lens. But I have a long way to go. So I’d really like to learn to use manual. XD
  • MORE ANDREW PETERSON MUSIC YES BOIII

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Wordy Goals

  • read 100 books. I’m really, really looking forward to this! And I’m counting books of the Bible so technically, I’ve already read four of the hundred I have to read! 😀 But yup, 100 books. Some of which may include War and Peace (HA!) some YA, and alphas. I really love the alpha part XD
  • finish, edit and rewrite Just Come Home. Ahhh, my wittle baby WIP is a year old already! *sighs* It’s gonna take some work, but I’m so doing this. You can’t stop me. It’s not your funeral, after all.
  • look into publishing. O_O WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT DID I SAY WHAT. I hve no clue where to start, I mean, it’s almost 100% sure I’m self-publishing, because honestly, who would take that? But again, if this doesn’t happen, it won’t be because I didn’t try!
  • write at least 500 words a day. I wish I could be meta and go for 1k1day, but I need to LIVE XD so I’m gonna set a reasonable amount for myself. I don’t know what I’ll write, but I’m looking forward to it! (fanfic, short stories, and poems, most likely *cough cough*) (maybe a novel or two) (I haven’t forgotten you Mirages)
  • actually respond to pen pals. 
  • join NaNo. Crush NaNo. Die in NaNo. 
  • Fill up my old notebooks. I have a bunch of old, good notebooks that wouldn’t be used. But I’m gonna take them. And write. Probably drek like on this blog. But it’ll be better than mindlessly scrolling through the web, right?
  • write in this lovely!

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The cover the cover da coverrrrr yay!

I can’t wait to write in it!

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Blogging Goals

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“Awwww yay!” you cry. “The actually fun stuff!”

Ha. Well, what do we have here…

  • have a blogsiversary.  >:) *laughs evilly* I’ve been blogging for practically a whole year, how?? But I know what I’m doing to “celebrate”. And it will be fun. 😉
  • start writing quality posts. I’m the lord of the random, and everything on this blog and this blog itself, is a result of that. So I wanna up the ante and make it a tad more purposeful.
  • enter a few contests and challenges. Like BIBPC. Ohhh and speaking of, Megan, I GET TEN EXTRA POINTS BWAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH Because this is my picture for Category 4!

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I couldn’t change the file name.. but THAT IS A DONKEY. And I’ve saved that just for you since March! 😛 HA! HA! HA! *is so happy right now*

Ahem. Moving on.

  • Design some blogs. If you’re interested, I put up a Services page, so if you want to redesign your blog or need a new button, header, signoff, widgets, or whatever, I’d love to work with ya! And Rebekah’s helping me out too, so I won’t mess anything up! 🙂
  • Keep things running at Welcome To Odyssey. As you know, AIO is my fandom and my fandom is AIO, so I love ranting about everything under the sun that even remotely has something to do with AIO, so I’m looking forward to this!
  • figure out my YT channel. It’s pathetic.

 

B9EF66FA-B504-491B-A2BD-B0E1A3ECDE3BRandom Fun Goals (we’re almost over, hang in there :P)

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  • record more songs and make more audio dramas as part of the Audiosmiths. As bad as my voice is, I love singing.. and I love acting, so win-win! XD
  • beat someone, ANYONE, at checkers! My good friend Denise gave me this awesome set for my birthday, and then proceeded to beat me at checkers.

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WAH.  But ahem. Learning, and playing more offscreen games in general is a plus I’m looking forward to. 🙂

  • go outside more. 
  • dream. 
  • try to keep a thankfulness journal. 
  • eat bacon.
  • make someone smile. 

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Yesterday, I got this framed from a friend.

And I think that’s gonna be my… quote of the year, or whatever.

Call to Me and I will answer you. And show you great and mighty things which you do not know. -Jeremiah 33:3

From the looks of everything, I have it all under control (HA!) But the truth is, I don’t know just what’s going to happen. But God does.

I’m looking forward to the great and might things He has for me, and until then, I’m gonna trust Him and keep driving this hard drive. It has some awesome views along the way.

May the roads be as bumpy as you can handle, that you’ll find rest, and you’ll be fueled up for a hard- but joyful drive. 🙂

 

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Right Where You Are

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Ever heard of the movie Moana? Sea princess movie, follows her heart, sails the ocean, saves her people, doesn’t fall in love with a guy, has a telekinetic thing with water? I don’t agree with much of what Moana does, but I do sympathize with her on one thing.

I want to see more than the horizon I’m looking at. I want to sail that sea.

For the longest time, I have wished (and still wish) that I was anything other than who I am right now. It seemed that I was born into the most opportunity lacking situation possible.

I’m Canadian, and everything I wanted to join was on the other side of the border. The Get In The Show contest AIO had? Nada. Bible Bee? I’m immediately eliminated. That Christian atmosphere? Not here. Let’s not forget I’m Filipino- Canadian. Which makes it a little hard when people expect you to have an accent and be fluent in Tagalog because you have slightly chinky eyes. Slightly. I don’t even notice it.

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Now we get chestnuts.. I won’t shriek, I won’t shriek, I won’t shriek..

I’m homeschooled. Which means I learn at home and wherever. But for some reason, I’m not in a co-op. I don’t get any extra curriculars other than what I make for myself. There’s no sports, no summer camps, no cool things I learn if I don’t learn it myself. Sometimes it’s hard to constantly be the one to push yourself, and alone.

Unlike the cool stereotype, I don’t live in the country, in some awesome rural area with tiny dirt roads and deer and that small town farm life thing. No. I live somewhat in the city and somewhat not. Where people get hurt or worse almost every day, you need a permit to breathe, you have to watch your back walking down the street, and it’s.. just…eh. No place is completely safe, but where I am ranks a lil low down the list.

And…. I’m a pastor’s kid. People scrutinize you like a Marvel trailer. They dissect everything you do, and if you seem to mess up, bam, you’re outta the frying pan and into the fire. You’re supposed to be the example, and well, I’m not. Heh.

I didn’t like it. I wanted anything other than this. I wanted to have the choice to take awesome cool stuff, to have other homeschoolers to study with, to not be considered weird for liking a Bible passage other than John 3:16, to live in a place where people know you by name.

I kinda wanted to follow my heart. Heh.

But God’s changing my heart.

And I guess I realized something: God did not make a mistake when He put me where I am, who I am, and what I love to do.

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I knew that, duh. But it kinda came real last night, when I was practicing The Huron Carol (thanks Meredith for the suggestion!) I wanted to search up the history behind the carol, and I was surprised. I knew it was Canadian, yeah, but I didn’t know how it was sung in the Wendat (I think I spelled it right?) language, or that the French wrote it first, or that it’s Canada’s oldest carol. Or that Canada had a carol.

Was it possible I was too busy not liking how my country is that I didn’t see the beauties of it?

It kinda made me think.

There’s a reason why I’m here.

I don’t know what God wants for me. Yet. But I do know He has a plan for me. I know that He’s growing me to be the person He wants me to be. He’s picked the right greenhouse. I don’t know why I am at this specific latitude and longitude and I don’t know why I have to do a lot of things alone. I don’t know why I stick out like a sore thumb, or just don’t really fit in.  But God does.

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I don’t even know how I jumped from a carol to this whole life thing. XD

But while I’m here.. I know there’s more I haven’t realized. And I’m learning that there’s so many blessings in this situation I haven’t realized because I’ve been too busy looking for blessings elsewhere. That what I considered disadvantages are advantages in their own way. I’m never gonna stop dreaming for y’know, more. But I’m not gonna sulk cause I don’t have it yet.

So that part, “you can find happiness right where you are?”

I’ve found better.

I’m finding joy.

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Um, quick quick announcement.

What you are about to hear is WAY different from what I used to put up.

Honestly, after making this, I’m kinda ashamed I even made the others. XD I like to think it’s better, but by all means draw your own conclusions.

Thanks a million squared to my brother Joseph for helping me make this! I know I’ve said you were driving me crazy and that the sentiment is mutual, but seriously, you’re awesome! Thank you, thank you, thank you! This whole thing would never have happened without you, and thank you so much! (Y’all, if you like hard rocky stuff, you can find his works at eaglewingsandguitarstrings and I am sorry this sounds like an ad. :P)

But. Ahem. Here ya go. 🙂

Happy Friday people.

Being Down and Getting Up

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Did I just make two references? Yes. Oh well. 

Ever get those days when you’re just down, you’re tired of everything and algebra has never made less sense than it does right now? Everything hurts, your head is ringing and plus you don’t have enthusiasm to do….anything?

Yeah, you get where I’m going. I wasn’t very eager to do much today. (Blame the fever!! :P) Which is kinda annoying, because I have too much homework to afford being sick, and sad, because I don’t like being weak. I don’t like being that person curled up on the sofa not having the strength to move anything. I like pushing myself to doing hard things and crushing them. 

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But you can’t push yourself forever. And that can be very discouraging as you waddle up in a blanket of tiredness and prop yourself up on a pillow of discouragement.

 (Huh. That last line sounds very poetic. I’ma have to save that for a sappy essay in Literature soon.)

You also can’t let your tiredness bring you down either. And that can drive a person crazy. Unless they’re already crazy. So finding that balance between driving it hard and just giving up is tricky.

No, I’m not helping you find that balance. I don’t even know where I can find it. But I can give you little things to keep going. Little bursts to crack a smile on your face, tiny reminders that yes, the sun will shine again. 

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First, go and eat something. An extra burst of protein or sugar (never mind, just sugar) can boost you up. It’s like that ad, you’re not you when you’re hungry. XD

Second, take a look out the window. Maybe it’s snowing like it is right now, or maybe there’s raindrops hitting the glass. Maybe the sun’s coming up. Even better, get out and enjoy it for a while. A breath of fresh air can really help. 

Listen to things that make you happy. I dunno about you, but some songs that come up on shuffle just make me wanna dance, and sometimes, that’s not a bad thing. 😉 Play your favorite song on guitar, fiddle up something, create a beautiful sound. 

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Look at that big nasty list of things that need to be done. When all’s said and done, it’s just a list. It doesn’t define you. Yes, you have a test tomorrow, so do I, and yes, it would be more productive to finish a chore than read that book, but if you’ve been seeing nothing but work and it’s getting to you, don’t be afraid to switch things up a little. Tell you what. You reward yourself after finishing a bunch of tasks, I’ll do the same, and we’ll see how far we can go without dying. 

Go bake a pie, jog a mile, write something, listen to an episode *screams Adventures In Odyssey*, call a friend, read a book, take your day back. Being down is, well, a downer, 😛 but if you can get up again, go for it!

A good friend of mine (who, if you’re reading this, which you aren’t, know that you were thought of!) once said something that may or may not help. He asked me if I’m waking up every day for myself or for something- somebody other than myself.

Ouch.

And, like my good friend, I won’t say anything further. Unlike my good friend, I don’t have anything better to add.

 You got this. You can get back up.

Conflicting Thoughts On Halloween? Join The Semi-Resistance. And The Day That’s Really Worth Celebrating.

 

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Today’s the last day of October. How on earth…. And today is also known as Halloween, which, maybe is a topic you’re not sure about yet? (And I don’t mean ta be offensive, so… sorry!) Some of us love it, some of us are against it, and then there’s us who’re in a different level entirely.

Yeah, I’m going to rant. But you’ll see why.

As a kid, I was taught Halloween was bad, that they celebrate the devil and whatnot, but my church, probably for the sake of the poor kids who didn’t get candy, had a Christianized version of Halloween? So, there was that angle.

But the thing is I liked cosplay, (Using regular clothes to make a costume) and I was a dumb kid who wanted candy. I guess that explains the really cool black jacket and the candied apples we made at home. So my family was having the fun without all the commercialism, and without calling it Halloween? I guess? But we’re also a family that wanted to celebrate things with a point, with a purpose, and my parents also couldn’t eat too much sugar. Heh.

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Probably shouldn’t have made brownies. Anyway, if you one of those who want something really worth celebrating, like me, there happens to be an event that changed world history that more kids, more Christians should know about. It wasn’t a counter on Halloween, it was a protest of it and all the darkness of the 1500s.

On October 31,1517, Martin Luther wielded a hammer.

But it’s not the hammer that was important so don’t get your hopes up. What was important was the paper he was nailing to the door of some really fancy church I forgot the name of. Because that paper was the 95 theses. Basically, it was calling the Roman Catholic Church out on every serious flaw they made acceptable. (And if you’re Catholic, I’m really sorry if I offended you! The Catholics back then were vastly different from the Catholics now, so..)

You see, back then, in the Middle Ages through the beginnings of the Renaissance, people were WHACKED. They believed that evil spirits were real and goblins were about to snatch their souls, so they needed to worship them to appease the spirits, that flies came from rotten meat, that the sun revolved around the earth, and that the only way to Heaven was to do strictly what the Catholic Church said. And what did the church do? Not much that was helpful.

They thought it was borderline ungodly for anyone not a clergy to read the Scripture. (And I’m obviously rehashing everything, don’t get mad) so no Bible, no assurance of salvation, none of God’s wisdom for life, and it all leads to chaos.

Martin Luther literally nailed down everything wrong with the system and started some people to be mad. i.e. the system. And everything he got was from studying the Bible. This was the brave, bold thing he did. He based everything, every belief, on the word of God. Which was huge in a time where the pope was infallible and said only truth (TM).

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And that’s how Luther and contemporaries started a revolution. And while they weren’t perfect, they were committed to basing everything on the Bible so that families, kids,  future generations wouldn’t be duped with the false lie that the Bible isn’t enough. And I know I’m a bad explainer so go check out Desiring God and search ‘Halloween’ if you wanna know more, but  the long and short of it is that today marked the beginning of something huge. It was for the defense of our faith on the Bible.

Problem is we couldn’t care less. How many Christians know about the Reformation? And teach it to their kids? And how many of us realize it is still our job to fight for our faith to be grounded in the Word? To fight petty motives? To return evil for good?

There is still much darkness in the world. There’s still a lot of senseless activity in the world. But maybe for one day, we can bring some sense back.  So go do your research, find out for yourself, and maybe today, do something good, for someone other than yourself. Give, instead of taking. And if you wanna join the semi resistance against mindless celebrations,

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Here. I. Stand.

(UPDATE: SO I HAVE THE ‘WHY’ PART OF THIS HALLOWEEN THING BUT TESS HAS THE ‘DO’ PART AND IF YOU COULD GO TO STEEPLECHASEBLOG.WORDPRESS.COM WE’D BE GRATEFUL AND I’M. SORRY THIS IS IN CAPS BLAME MY STUCK KEYBOARD)

Dear You

Dear you,

Yes, you. The intense photographer, the writer, the blogger. The one who wants to take that picture, write that story, publish that post.

But you got family to spend time with. Or friends. Or both. So you try to bring your laptop or camera along, hoping some inspiration will come your way, anyway. And voila! Inspiration comes!

Or you find out that you left your memory card inside your laptop, you left your memory stick in your laptop, you left your laptop on your desk, and you left your desk in your room.

And it’s pretty much a loss. Why even bring your camera if you don’t have the memory card? Or your laptop if your document’s on a different memory stick? Or if there’s no internet?

Meanwhile, you got people waiting who want to connect with you, want to catch up with you, want to know how you’re doing.

Piece of advice. Don’t cry over leaving your important laptop/memory card/ internet/whatever home. (Yeah, I know it was spilled milk, but oh well.) Spend time with those who are important, people.

There will be another sunset to take a picture of, there will be another hour devoted to word sprinting, there will be time to put that post up. But you’re not gonna always have your family and friends around.

And when do you get to take that picture, write that story, publish that post, it will mean more because in doing, you didn’t shut people out. We tend to do that sometimes. It’s not a missed opportunity if you’re spending time with those you love. 

We draw inspiration from life, from those around us. Not if we tune them out. Remember that.

Sincerely,

Me

P.S. 4 days til Camp NaNo, my friends. 4 days! Start strong, and end strong. But remember who, and Who, is most important.

Also, if you’re wondering how I’m able to get so much posts in, this is scheduled. XD